{"id":91514,"date":"2024-10-31T10:52:01","date_gmt":"2024-10-31T17:52:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/?p=91514"},"modified":"2024-10-31T10:52:01","modified_gmt":"2024-10-31T17:52:01","slug":"i-couldnt-get-used-to-this","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/?p=91514","title":{"rendered":"I Couldn&#8217;t Get Used to This"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>As I drove through the forest on my last field day, I looked out the window, staring at those big ol&#8217; Fir trees I now know and love. I began to process that this would be the last time, for a long time, that I would see this forest. When I first arrived in the Willamette National Forest, I was starstruck. Everything looked like a dream. I wondered if people out here ever got used to the beauty. Now, as I come to the end of my season, I ask myself the same question.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>To answer it simply, no.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"aligncenter size-full is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6590.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-91515\" width=\"-216\" height=\"-280\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6590.jpg 1156w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6590-768x1030.jpg 768w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6590-1145x1536.jpg 1145w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6590-224x300.jpg 224w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1156px) 100vw, 1156px\" \/><figcaption>How would you ever get used to this?<\/figcaption><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>To explain further, I don\u2019t think it\u2019s possible to get used to it. I\u2019m never looking at the same exact thing. The more I look at the forest, the more I find another hidden detail &#8211; a tiny cove in a riverbed, a little beetle crawling on leaves, or even just a beautiful overlook. During my time out here, I\u2019ve been fortunate enough to witness the seasons change from early Summer to late Autumn. When I first arrived, Mt. Jefferson was coated in snow, then I watched the glaciers melt to reveal bare rock, and now, in my final week, the snow has returned. I\u2019ve loved being up close and personal with the passage of time. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"1170\" height=\"870\" data-id=\"91516\"  src=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6600.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-91516\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6600.jpg 1170w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6600-768x571.jpg 768w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6600-403x300.jpg 403w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1170px) 100vw, 1170px\" \/><figcaption>Mt. Jefferson in June<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"1170\" height=\"849\" data-id=\"91517\"  src=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6593.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-91517\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6593.jpg 1170w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6593-768x557.jpg 768w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6593-413x300.jpg 413w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1170px) 100vw, 1170px\" \/><figcaption>Mt. Jefferson in September<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>The forest changes constantly. We watched the flowers bloom into mature seeds, and the fruiting of huckleberry bushes are now replaced with fruiting fungi on the forest floor. Our sunny days are instead replaced with cloudy rain, and the forest looks completely different after rainfall &#8211; the moss is brighter, the river runs faster, and the newly fallen trees block our path. The animals go in and out of hibernation and mating &#8211; the birds I heard in early June are now replaced with October crow squawks. The roads that made me feel like I was going to summer camp in a blockbuster film now fill my mind with the tune of \u201cWinter Wonderland\u201d. The lighting, the colors, the noises, the weather, and even the feel of the forest are changing constantly.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"1170\" height=\"838\" data-id=\"91519\"  src=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6599.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-91519\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6599.jpg 1170w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6599-768x550.jpg 768w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6599-419x300.jpg 419w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1170px) 100vw, 1170px\" \/><figcaption>Summer!<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"1147\" height=\"640\" data-id=\"91518\"  src=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6591.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-91518\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6591.jpg 1147w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6591-768x429.jpg 768w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6591-500x279.jpg 500w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1147px) 100vw, 1147px\" \/><figcaption>Autumn!<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>So, maybe I can\u2019t say if I\u2019ve gotten used to it because this forest isn\u2019t the same as when I began. There are constantly new things to learn and new ways to understand what\u2019s going on. As soon as we scientists think we understand the way of the land, some new research comes out revealing another one of nature\u2019s secrets, changing how we see everything. With each piece of information I learn, I look at the forest differently. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-gallery has-nested-images columns-default is-cropped\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"1170\" height=\"1538\" data-id=\"91522\"  src=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6594.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-91522\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6594.jpg 1170w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6594-768x1010.jpg 768w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6594-1168x1536.jpg 1168w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6594-228x300.jpg 228w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1170px) 100vw, 1170px\" \/><figcaption>Amanita<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"1154\" height=\"1509\" data-id=\"91521\"  src=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6597.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-91521\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6597.jpg 1154w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6597-768x1004.jpg 768w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6597-229x300.jpg 229w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1154px) 100vw, 1154px\" \/><figcaption>Washington Lily Seeding<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"1150\" height=\"1513\" data-id=\"91523\"  src=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6598.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-91523\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6598.jpg 1150w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6598-768x1010.jpg 768w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6598-228x300.jpg 228w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1150px) 100vw, 1150px\" \/><figcaption>Bug in the moss!!!<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<figcaption class=\"blocks-gallery-caption\">Some of my favorite little things I&#8217;ve seen in the forest!<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Despite all of the changes, this forest does feel like home. All the plants that used to blur together, now feel comforting to me, like seeing an old friend. I look at the forest differently, but in a way that you look at a friend differently when you begin to understand them deeper. Even if everything wasn\u2019t changing, I don\u2019t think I would get used to it. Beauty isn\u2019t something you get used to or bored by. I feel like true beauty is something you appreciate every time you see it because no matter how long you stare, your brain will never be able to comprehend how something so divine was created. So, goodbye Willamette &#8211; I hope you know how beautiful you are.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"aligncenter size-full is-resized\"><img loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6596-1.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-91524\" width=\"554\" height=\"415\" srcset=\"https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6596-1.jpg 1143w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6596-1-768x575.jpg 768w, https:\/\/blog.clminternship.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/IMG_E6596-1-401x300.jpg 401w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 554px) 100vw, 554px\" \/><figcaption>One of my favorite moments from this season &#8211; I was reading during my lunch break, and a grasshopper came and sat on my page. We stared into each other&#8217;s eyes, forming a deep cosmic connection for 20 minutes, but then I had to go. 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